6/29/13
Today was a great day.
I was so glad to meet my family.
I feel a loss at not having known them (or of them for that matter) for
the majority of my life so far. They are
incredible people and I feel that I can truly be myself around them, which is
amazing because sometimes with family you can’t even be yourself. I realized that I have been focusing on the
wrong things recently. I need to focus
on what matters most, and frankly calories do not matter most. Life matters most. Love matters most. I went to a cousin’s wedding today (a cousin
I didn’t even know about until very recently) and during the ceremony the
minister said love is when you try and want to make the other person happy or
something along those lines. I wish I
had remembered it because it was beautiful.
I love these members of my family, I love my family.
6/30/13
Today was a fascinating day.
I went to church with my Grandma Sharon and her son and daughter in
law. (Debbie and kurt). It was an interesting experience. One thing I
found interesting and enjoyed was the pastors approach at discussing addictions
in our lives. He specifically talked
about addictions were when we placed pleasure before God. He tied it into the higher step of being
called. We are not just saved by God but
we are called of God and when we have purpose, namely God’s purpose we change
our behavior. It is not necessarily that
certain things are bad but when they take a precedent over God they are a
problem. It is the problem of focusing
on the less important things. I realized
I was doing this with my life. I was
counting calories and focusing on that and missing other more important things
in life like love and family.
Today I also got to enjoy spending time listening to Gumpa
and Sharon sharing family stories.
A few weeks ago (a day before I left for Seattle) I received
a blessing. I am seeing the answer to
that blessing now when it comes to being drawn to my family and getting to know
them better. This week long trip to
Yakima is a miracle trip.
7/1/13
Today was such a blessing just being around family. I got to sit and watch as my grandfather
spent time with his sisters and listen to them sing. What a blessing it is to be around this
family. They are such incredible
people. Family can truly be the richest
of blessings.
7/2/13
There are so many smiles and blessing for today. I enjoy just being around my family, what a
rich blessing it is. I was able to spend
time with Gumpa and his sisters Arlene and Pat along with Sharon, Shanna
(Arlenes daughter), Robert (Shanna’s husband), and Molly (Shanna and Roberts
daughter) as they talked and sang old songs.
What a delight. I was later able
spend time with Debbie and Madison.
Madison and I colored together and played games like memory and math
games. It was so delightful. One of my favorite parts was when we both
went up to hug Gumpa. I love them, they
are FAMILY. I was so proud of Madison as
well, at 6 years old she was doing multiplication. At one point during a fun math game we did to
help with the cleanup I had asked her to do 3x6. I was so proud of how she found the
answer. It wasn’t just something that she
had memorized. She did something like
this 3, 6, 9, 12, 15, 16, 17, 18. She
could figure out 3x5 but had to use her logic/analytical skills to figure out
how to find the next number. She had
also surprised me with a cross that she had colored just for me. We had only really met 5 minutes two days
before and yet she wanted to make it for me.
I love it. After all that joy I
also got to enjoy talking with Grandma Sharon until 1:30am again. I love just talking with her, and I love
her. What a rich blessing. I can truly admit that this trip was meant to
be. I wish I could describe what it
means to me. I never want to forget this
trip and more importantly than not forgetting, I want it to be more of a part
of me. I want to remain close to
them. I want to be better (in so many
aspects).
One truly beautiful parts of this trip, it is love. That is what matters at the end of the
day. That is the beauty of this
life. It isn’t the loud love of
Hollywood, but the pure love. I don’t
know if I would say simple love, but yet there is a simplicity in it. I would not say quiet love, because there are
moments when you simple want to get up and say I love you. I would not say loud love either, because
there are moments that it is felt in the quiet moments of just sitting near
each other or thinking about each other, or doing the dishes for another. But I would say it is the love you can see in
the ordinary life.
7/3/13
Today’s thoughts may be a lot on the philosophical
side. I would have to say that sometimes
the hard times of a day do overshadow the smile part. I could say I had several good parts to my
day: I spent time with family, I got to get to know my Aunt, I got to spend
time with extended family, I got to experience the service part of love (the
quiet part of helping another by doing dishes etc.). All these are beautiful and good, but
sometimes it is hard to look for the happy moments when there are some pretty
blatant rough ones, like those you love going to the emergency room.
Maybe my blog for this week should be titled love. I once heard “you cannot have sorrow without
love” or something along those lines.
The truth of the matter is when you care about someone you can hurt (or
feel sorrow) for them or by them or with them.
Love does not come sunshine and flowers every day all day. But it does come with the greatest rewards
and return value. So I don’t know if I
will necessarily post today as a “happy day” etc. but rather a day on the
reflections of love.
7/4/13
A dash of love makes any meal taste better. To be liked and loved makes any day better.
To have someone you love near makes life better. And to have a Sharon return home makes the
fourth of July even happier.
7/5/13
Today’s smile is expressions of love. One expression of love came from Mackenzie (8
year old granddaughter) to Sharon. “My
love for you is out of control”
7/6-7/11
There are so many things to add to this blog on love especially for these days.
I guess I will sum it up in what love is
Love is the song from Fiddler on the Roof,
Love is doing the dishes for someone,
Love is caring,
Love is respect,
Love is the sorrow of saying good-bye
Love is the smile of a memory,
Love is being willing to look the fool,
Love is ....
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